Our bucket list

I wish I can go back time and we do this together..I wish that time I knew you were sick and spend more time with you..I wish you were the one that protect me and be happy with me..so I make this bucket list for what I wish we could done in the last 3 year..
1.watch movie
2.karoeke
3.pg jungle trekking
4.berbasikal
5.one day at theme park
..I miss you..����

Truth

Why is the truth is hurt than a lie .
It hard to tell the truth.
It hard when the truth I'm really sad but I cover with a fake smile.
I never thought that I still miss you.
I miss you really like crazy.
But I try to live this new life
Without you...without you..the truth I still like you..truth..

My bucket list

1.  Busy
2.win in netball.
3. Meet new friend.
4. Stay alone.
5. Active in church activities
6. Active in faculty activities.
7. One day  outing alone.
8. Record 20 book borrow..
9.  No couple.
10. Target 3.5 above!!!

My life list

1. Independent.
2. Target 3.5 ke atas.
3. Read one book a day.
4. First love in church.
5. Bungee jump.
6. One day fun alone at time square.
7. Target 45 kg.
8. Got a good job.
9.  Always go church.
10. Help poor people.

End of waiting

It's like this,
I will forget from today on.
Just like we have not meet.
Even if we meet in the future,
And it may not even be a brief encounter,im fine.
I already forgotten.
I am happy in this busy world.
Here I have encountered love.
Love is like this,becoming weaker and weaker.
It will be forgotten by people.
Even if it hurts now,as time passes the wounds will be healed.

Friends

I realised you'll only get hurt if you have friends.and that is something I dont need.

Grant wishes

Wish im not gonna die..
I still have wishes that still not achieve it.
When?why?how?
I ask myself..
What can I do when im still alive.
What will happen if they know ..
Question in my mind..
Hope God let me live till I find happiness....

Fun

Fun..Did I have too much fun?Now I think that being too fun sometime make me forget the reality of my life..I think I should stop having fun..It's enough.I should think more on study,study,work,work,family and family.no more fun,no more monkey love..

Life

What this life means? It hard to hide your sadness when you with people surrounding you.Being happy is hard when you afraid that being too happy can make you lost something.I wish I  dont care ...I wish I never been here

R the name that change me

R,I hate this name start with R cause almost all the guys that broke up with me have name start with R and also every guy that I confess and get rejected is because of this R guy..but the truth is they also change my life ..change me,protect me and they always say they love me as we are sibling.humm..I think that now although I hate it being in friend zone but now I realise that being in friend zone is much better than being lover.

My friends

Never heard of this thing that happen to me.

Happiness

People who think that happiness is something that's always within their reach ,I wonder how happy they must really be? She always gets nervous when she finds herself to be too happy.To that woman,happiness is like blow bubbles we used to play with when we were little.The moment she touches the bubbles carrying the lights of rainbow around her ,they burst.In front of happiness,that woman gives up before even reaching out her hand .

Unrequited love

How timid and delicate unrequited love is? Even though unrequited love finds its own way in,it's a love that gets trapped inside,unable to find an exit.Even though I'm the one who started it without knowing a thing,If he leaves my sight one day,it's a love that ends vain without it ever having a purpose.Never ever even having had the chance to bud or bloom any flowers.A love that can never bear fruit,like a seed left forgotten.That is....Unrequited love...

Afraid of the crowded

Whenever she  steps out into the world,that woman often becomes an inbisible being.She got shoved around and stepped on and when she gets mixed amongst the crowd,I don't think she's visible to other people.That's why that woman hides in her room.Her small room feels cozy to her like a cage feels cozy to a bird with a broken wing.And in that room she can breathe freely.She's never dreamed of the world outside,or missed the world out there.At least until now....

One sided love

It always happen to me and everytime it happen I feel really hurt deep in my heart..it's like a puzzle picture .it's need time to get the pieces together..I never understand why  I'm so easily love someone because they to nice to me..so maybe I should know the difference between friend zone and love..

Wish that dream come true

Once I closed my eyes,I dream I was in a kitchen chopping the vegetables and suddenly a warm hug came from my back.there was a guy ,the perfect guy I love the most..when I cook the food ,he would like to help me..when he taste the food,he just smiling and laughing..when watch movie in cinema, he gave me his jacket when I cold,hold my hand when im afraid..when we go to karoeke,we sing duet song..we have fun together.when it comes to evening,we jog together.when I feel tired ,he gave me a bottle water.we seat on the bench under a tree.I always laugh with just a small joke he always tell..I cant help myself smiling whenever he with me..At night I cant sleep cause I afraid that the end of my dream.so I look his face closers sleep next to his chest.I feel warm when he hug me,feel being love so much..I close my eyes and say "I love you my perfect guy and wish it was not just a dream."..I open my eyes and feel so sad when there was no more my perfect guy next to me...