Mindset or Heart beat

At first I fall in love with that guy for a moment but then I try to change my mindset. 

I keep on believing and hoping that both of us can only have that sibling relationship only.

He will and always be a brother to me. 

I quite surprised that when you slowly change your mind to hold your heart,

it's actually really work when you want to forget that you love someone.

Maybe mindset more  power than your heart beat. 

Maybe you can change your heart by your mindset.

Or maybe not...

Hopeless

Her smile keep fade away, 

She try hard to fake her smile,

But she laugh painfully.

She felt sorry to the one that she love.

 so she keep pushing them far away.

She  try to love someone,

but she keep end up hurting him,

so her heart  broken.

She feels unloved,

She feels unwanted,

so she cut herself and smile,

as she see the blood drain with blood,

like a summer rain.

She never feel pains when she cut herself,

instead she feel the joy to end her life slowly.

She trapped in a world with false hope,

A world of hate and lies,

A reality become a nightmare,

haunt her also in her dreams.

Tonight she sleep,

She waiting for Peter pan to hold her hand,

To bring her to the promise land,

A paradise called Neverland.