Stuck between I wanna love someone and I'm better off single

 I want to love someone,

I want to feel the care and being care,

I want to laugh together, Cry together,

Share both interests,

Calling and texting telling them how's your day was.

But love is a war,

Love can bring you down,

Love can make you insecure,

Love is hard when you the only one truly love,

Love is pain when it's one sided love,

So is it better off being single?

Love is a beautiful feeling to be in. But no feeling is more than your self worth. Work on your betterment. The right person will find you at the right time, irrespective of whether you expect them or even if you are hopeless.

Mindset or Heart beat

At first I fall in love with that guy for a moment but then I try to change my mindset. 

I keep on believing and hoping that both of us can only have that sibling relationship only.

He will and always be a brother to me. 

I quite surprised that when you slowly change your mind to hold your heart,

it's actually really work when you want to forget that you love someone.

Maybe mindset more  power than your heart beat. 

Maybe you can change your heart by your mindset.

Or maybe not...

Hopeless

Her smile keep fade away, 

She try hard to fake her smile,

But she laugh painfully.

She felt sorry to the one that she love.

 so she keep pushing them far away.

She  try to love someone,

but she keep end up hurting him,

so her heart  broken.

She feels unloved,

She feels unwanted,

so she cut herself and smile,

as she see the blood drain with blood,

like a summer rain.

She never feel pains when she cut herself,

instead she feel the joy to end her life slowly.

She trapped in a world with false hope,

A world of hate and lies,

A reality become a nightmare,

haunt her also in her dreams.

Tonight she sleep,

She waiting for Peter pan to hold her hand,

To bring her to the promise land,

A paradise called Neverland.